I was just reminded of…
The last time I felt like I’d lost control over myself. It was probably about as bad as it’s ever been, an all time low I’d say. I called a woman who I lived with for a while during my time at public high school, she’s the one who reminded me. I realized recently that this time period did some real damage to the way I viewed myself and the situations I was in. I became (and still somewhat am) a pessimist. You could present me with a fool proof way to do anything and I’d come up with a way for it to fail- and give up. I’m glad things are looking up, but if things head downhill I just may fall further.
